What did I do? I've created some sort of a monster. I could feel the chunks start to rise up in my troat, I had to get out! Everything I think and everything I do is wrong. I was wrong about Elton, I was wrong about Christian, and now Josh hated me. It all boiled down to one inevitable conclusion, I was just totally clueless. Oh and this Josh and Tai thing was just wiggin me more then anything, I mean what was my problem Tai is my pal I don't begrudge her a boyfriend, I really... Ooo I wonder if they have that in my size. What does she want with Josh anyway? He dresses funny, he listens to complaint rock, he's not even cute in the conventional way. I mean he's just like this SLUG who hangs around the house all day, ugh, and he's a hiddious dancer, you couldn't take him anywhere. Wait a second what am I stressing about, he's like... JOSH. Ok, Ok so he's kind of a Baldwin but what would he want with Tai? She couldn't make him happy, Josh needs someone with imagination, someone to take care of him, someone to laugh at his jokes... incase he ever makes any. Then suddenly... OH MY GOSH!! I LOVE JOSH!!... I am majorly, totally, butt-crazy in love with Josh... but now i don't know how to act around him. I mean ordinaraly I'd strut around him in my cutest little outfits and send myself flowers and candy... but I couldn't do that stuff with Josh...